Ok, fine. I gave up blogging about it after two days last year. Pitiful. But here’s the thing – I didn’t stop being thankful. I just spent my time doing things I was thankful for instead of writing about it.
So, this year, I’ll be honest and admit I’m not going to keep up. Hell, I already missed the first two days of the month. Off to a start that will be consistent with how I proceed – inconsistently.
Although last year was probably the most change-filled year of my life, I wouldn’t take any of it back. I got out of a relationship and fell in love with my best friend. I spent months upon months enjoying every second of our time together and really relearned the value of loving someone with every piece of your being. I finally put my guard down and gave my entire soul to someone. That shit doesn’t happen easily. Especially for a too-tough bitch like myself.
That fulfilling relationship recently ended. It’s been quite tough, but you know what? It taught me a lot. And this November, I’m thankful for all of the lessons I’ve learned over the last year. I’m thankful for the amount I’ve grown and the strength I’ve built. I’m thankful that although it hurts more than I could imagine, the euphoria that comes with being fully “in it” with someone makes up for all of it.
I needed that. I needed to stop guarding and start being vulnerable. Mark that off as an accomplishment for my year.